Seeking a Reason for Living

The joy of a good fight

Gate 38: The Fighter, the Opposition, the Joy of Struggle

Time is flying, and here we are at the very end of the year. Tomorrow is the last day of 2025. I honestly can’t believe it, finally its end. Because this December felt extremely long and, at times, painful and heavy enough. Financial pressure, mental exhaustion, and that usual inner battle of not slipping into victim consciousness. The financial month extreme financial challenges (Christmas and stuffs) especially made it hard not to spiral mentally.

Today, I feel a little stronger, thank God. Nothing has really changed on the outside but something has definitely did change inside. Not surprised, the Sun has just moved into its last gate of the year: the Gate of the Fighter, the Opposition, Gate 38.

This is pure and raw adrenaline energy. The energy of standing up for what truly matters. Not for the collective or for the tribe, but for the individual, like for you and for me, what worth to live for.

I don’t have this gate defined in my chart, but I know it well. I carry Gate 28, the Gate of the Game Player, and whenever Gate 38 is activated through transits or through other people, the full Channel of Struggle comes alive in me. During these times, I can suddenly feel what is worth fighting for. What is worth the struggle.

This energy exists in and for all of us. We meet it again and again throughout life, through people, situations, missions, and moments that confront us with a simple but confronting question:

What is worth fighting for?

For me, with Gate 28, the fear is clear: I dread dying without having lived fully. Without leaving a mark. Without bringing something meaningful into the world.

I know there is something in me that wants to be expressed, and I am willing to struggle for it. I know this life worth to live, enjoy, experience as it is. But without Gate 38 defined, the pressure often turns mental. I try to figure it out instead of letting it be revealed through life itself.

Gate 38 is a projected energy. It needs interaction. It needs other people. It needs resistance, dialogue, reflection. I need others to help me see what I am truly fighting for, and perhaps this transit offers that clarity, even if only temporarily.

This gate belongs to the Individual Knowing Circuit. No one can tell you what your fight should be, and how it will look like. No rule-book applies. Each of us must feel it for ourselves, in real time, through lived experience.

When we find it, we don’t convince others, we simple fight for it and become the example. And by doing so, we empower others to find their own fight.

This struggle cannot be forced. If it’s initiated from the mind, it meets resistance and leads to exhaustion. But when it rises from within, it becomes life-giving.

Gate 38 is also about protecting individual integrity:

• Not fighting for others’ battles.

• Not being pulled into causes that aren’t ours.

• Not compromising truth just to belong.

These are not violent fights. They are necessary struggles, essential for evolution.

Because evolution is not passive. It is not comfortable. But it is not about survival either, it’s about becoming more alive.

These are good fights. The kind we secretly enjoy. The kind that stretch us, sharpen us, and teach us who we really are.

Sometimes, in this energy, we become stubborn. Deaf to outside voices. Not out of arrogance, but to preserve our inner truth.

The evolution of this gate moves through distinct stages: qualification, politeness, alliance, investigation, alienation, and misunderstanding.

So during the coming days, watch closely.

Notice how opposition shows up. Notice where you feel resistance and whether it drains you or energizes you. Notice what feels worth your energy to fight.

Ask some question to yourself:

What gives you a reason to live?
What makes you feel most alive?

That is not a philosophical question. It’s a bodily knowing, in the moment, by using your intuition.

And it might just be the most important question to close this year with.

Wish you a very happy and successful new year in 2026, and I hope you will find your battle, what will worth your energy to fight for.

With Love, Vicky